sending this all out into the universe-->
i can't stand how people act so fucking fake when they are trying to get attention. I can't stand it more when it is your best friend acting like a stupid idiot.
i also hate it when i get criticized for stuff that really she doesn't know anything about. like...moving for instance to a new country. well, if i had someone paying my way literally for every bit, it really wouldn't take much planning at all. she had the nerve to act like it was no big deal and that i was being a baby. but wait, i've been researching this for 2 years now. i sit on the computer and read about it while she is watching TV at night.
also, i can't stand how people brag about something that they really haven't done for themselves.
also, i hate it when people knock my relationships but in turn, i watch them receive the same bullshit from their boyfriends. but wait, that is different? does every boy try to control the way their girlfriend dresses? probably not, but mine did. and
i worry that i listened to my friends when it came down to my decision about my career. i worry so much that i listened too much to her..that i should go to texas. i'm so worried that i made the wrong decision-that she won't even be here anyway to help me through it because she will be gone.
I hate how her boyfriend acts like an asshole to me sometimes.
i act dumb because sometimes it is fun to be stupid about things. i love to be serious and dedicated to my work most times-but most people don't seem to have too much fun with me when i'm serious because most people don't like to talk about music all the time. understandable. but i HATE it, fucking HATE it when i get disrespected for being "dumb." when i know in any important social function, i would kick their asses. whatever that means.
and fuck. nick. she takes advantage of nice people. i fucking hate that about her. i also hate how i won't do that to anyone, yet i don't think anyone really cares because people like people that disrespect them. why is that? i don't.
